College Life

Well.... I'm almost finished with my fourth year of college, where has the time gone??? It blows my mind how I have always wished for my life to hurry and get to the next level and now i'm sitting here wishing i could go back to freshman year and start all over!

I'm studying biology and for most of my life i've wanted to go to medical school. About a year ago, maybe, i decided to go to PA (physician's assistant) school instead, for more reasons than one. I have come to the time when I have to take the GRE and start applying to schools. I thought that applying to schools was over once I got into my undergrad college, but now i've decided that was just the beginning of things!!!

I've never been one to get straight A's without putting a lot of effort into it and once i got to college it didn't take me long to realize that A's may be coming around a lot less often if i didn't devote every ounce of energy i have into my school work!

Throughout my four years of college, I can honestly say that I have done a good job with putting my studies before most things and have done the best that I can. So...now it comes time to evaluate what i've done these fours years and put it on paper so that graduate schools can look at it! THAT SCARES ME TO DEATH!!! I don't consider myself dumb, by any means, but i do believe that i am only the "average" student and so it's going to take more than a good looking GPA to get me into a program that i'm interested in!

I'm having a really hard time focusing on what i have to do this week, such as turn in three major assignments and take two test, b/c i'm too stinking worried about where I hopefully will be this time next year!!!! why is it that I can just take one day at a time and let things work themselves out.

I guess I have to do a little more work on my end as far as praying that I can quit trying to make things happen in my life, which is something i am a pro at, and allow God to let things happen the way they're suppose to! Maybe if i can do this than i can quit "worring" about the things that aren't relevant right now so that i can focus on what's in front of me!

so...starting now, i'm going to stop worrying about where i'm going to be in a year and focus on the school i have to finish now and quite getting in the way of God's big picture of everything!

thanks for listening to me as i slap myself back into reality :)